Burning

Mormonism is based on a emotional high. a Burning in the bussom. And over and over again i have been told by well meaning family members and missionaries to pray and ask, like james says to ask without being double minded.

I always hate it when i hear this. because one it assumes that everyone must have the exact same kind of emotional reaction, and this is the basis, the foundation of the average LDS. and two because it tells people that they don't have enough or the right kind of faith when they get a different answer.

this is like when Job's friends told him that he must have done something wrong or he wouldn't have been suffering. or like telling some one with cancer of Diabeties that if they just have faith God will heal them. so when they die it means they did not have enough faith to be healed.

any I lost count of the multiple times i have been told pray and God will tell you it is true. I have I truly wanted to know that if mormonism was the turth. I thirst for truth, but when i go to the author of turth he tells me the same thing over and over again, "this is not of me."

and when i tell this to the missionary or my multiple relatives they simply say i must have had in my mind the answeri wanted to hear. And that hurts, questions my sinsarity and my intergrity.